hi

2011-09-29T22:54:00.001+08:00

"I wish I could tie you up in my shoes, make you feel unpretty too."

2010-12-31T23:25:00.000+08:00

2010-12-30T10:56:00.002+08:00

Everytime I try to update here my minds goes blank; I no longer know what to say here anymore. Anyway I've been shutting myself out from the outside world for too long, I think it's time for me to set myself free.

2010 was bad. But I look at my scars and I'm proud of it because in the end I still made it through the year in one piece. I just hope 2011 will be better than the present, happy should be on the top of my list of resolutions. Yes, it should be. It must be. No more sleepless nights, no more no-appetite shit, no more anxiety attacks from stress.

I'm going to let myself go and set myself free. Yes, I should. I must.

2010-12-11T00:18:00.001+08:00

Dear girl turned 18 finally! :)

2010-11-13T23:37:00.002+08:00

I don't know what to do, or how long to wait for you. You said you needed time, so I won't rush you.

2010-11-07T14:56:00.001+08:00

We can make it. Just saying.

2010-10-14T00:11:00.000+08:00

Ice cream, anyone?

2010-10-02T23:38:00.000+08:00

2010-09-25T23:37:00.002+08:00

Had a short but lovely date with Hazirah, Ke Gin, Isobel & Dawn at Farhan's house. :D I miss them soooooo muchhhh!!!

2010-09-16T23:11:00.004+08:00

"I am not happy or sad, but both, and all the shades in between, all the time. "

2010-09-13T20:54:00.002+08:00

My dear girl turned 18 on saturday. :) Haven't seen her for so long.

2010-08-24T12:13:00.000+08:00

Yipeee favourite girls! :D

2010-07-23T23:28:00.002+08:00

I eat too much.

2010-07-21T22:43:00.003+08:00

Island creamery with the girls was awesomeeeeeeee! ♥

2010-06-12T23:05:00.001+08:00

I finally get to meet up with my Darling after so long, yay! :)

After that I went to the Surge with Roanna, Hafizah, Naufal and his 2 other friends. It was disappointing but the company made it great! :D Love Love!

2010-06-05T16:23:00.003+08:00

So nothing interesting happened during May, only that we had our birthdays celebrated together. And I also saw Vivian, Fadhilah & Jacq after sooo long hehe, love you girls. Xoxoxoxo!

Hello June, hello holidays! :)

2010-06-01T19:34:00.000+08:00

Everyday is an accomplishment because I don't know how I make it home alive.

2010-05-30T11:11:00.001+08:00

SOURCE

2010-05-23T01:26:00.000+08:00

"I love birthdays. Each year they bring you closer to death."

2010-05-15T22:31:00.003+08:00

Birthday girl on 13th May!

2010-05-12T20:31:00.001+08:00

The most retarded people you'll ever meet! This is the kind of entertainment I get everyday in school. Hahaha!

2010-05-08T23:09:00.003+08:00

7 of us wore black on Friday! :D But we didn't get to take a proper photo together because....

Anyway, my school has sooo many cool places I didn't know! Must explore soon.

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I also met up with Mabel after school for dinner & shopping! :D Yay love love. I shall make my next weekend free for the girls!

Hello Ryu darling I miss you!

2010-05-02T17:14:00.002+08:00

Say hi to new classmates! :D We decided to wear clothes related to food on Friday, then we went to play pool during our 3 hour break.
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Studying with Deric was a major failure because I was soooooo sleepy! But still, heh :D I did study okay.

2010-04-28T23:38:00.000+08:00

I don't care if I look ugly here, but IS module today was fun for the first time! :D

2010-04-18T00:39:00.001+08:00

SOURCE

2010-04-17T01:42:00.002+08:00

Are you serious, A for conserving Chinese Opera? This is probably the only thing I did right in 2009.

2010-04-15T22:25:00.001+08:00

School's starting, no more work. I will miss you girls! Sorry I couldn't go sheesha with all of you last night! :( <3

2010-03-12T00:08:00.003+08:00

Fish spa with Mabel last saturday, and she was practically squealing with laughter!

And my sunday was good too because 4 of us finally met up (like after a year). Best ever, interesting stories with priceless expressions. We cannot meet for dinner anymore, girls. Dinnertime is not long enough for us, seriously. :(

2010-03-06T22:13:00.001+08:00

Hmmmmm nougats. :)

2010-03-06T19:44:00.005+08:00

I miss school very much, both s29 & s31; and volleyball training with the girls.

2010-02-04T20:46:00.005+08:00

Picnic today got me sun-kissed, BADLY.

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Anyway, yesterday was the 3rd of February.

HAPPY 4th ANNIVERSARY BABYYYYYYYY! :DDDD *hugs&kissesssss*

2010-01-19T18:16:00.002+08:00

PE lessons are always da bombxzs. Aching legs now.

2010-01-11T20:39:00.003+08:00

School starts officially today! Tomorrow we are going to learn pottery, like fun ah! :D

But I went off to NP after that, stupid Firdaus tricked me into bringing things I don't need and in the end I was there for less than 1/2 hour! :( But it was okay, because I went to SP to find Juntian & Jolynn haha. He was so mean okay, he didn't wait for me and went to eat with his friends himself and made fun of me all the way. >:( Jolynn saved me though hehehehe.

It was great, meeting up with them. The 3 Js or something I can't remember what Juntian said about the 3 of us the last time!

When are you coming back?

2009-12-28T21:19:00.004+08:00

Went for so-called training today and was so unmotivated to move. D: But I still practiced a little...

After that I went for lunch with Kegin, and Jay joined us then we went to Funan to collect my pay! :D Felt rich but the feeling died down after awhile haha. :( I accompanied them to walk around in Peninsula and they really shop like girlssss! You know, the don't-know-whether-to-buy-or-not & okay-just-take-and-go kind. (I was almost dozing off while sitting and waiting for them.) Off to Kegin's house later, and his house his hugeeeeeeeee! Like super nice and big, so is his dog but it's smelly. Wanted to have dinner initially but ended up with just a drink at parkway and we went separate ways. And I am finally home! Today is hellll, so tired I don't know why. D:

Dearest went off to malaysia today. :( Come back soon, if not I poke you. Hahahaha, I miss you! <3

2009-12-23T02:41:00.003+08:00

Sentosa to celebrate Kenny's birthday on Monday! Am badly sunburnt but we had fun! :)

2009-12-11T21:50:00.002+08:00

Went to bookfest today. So many many many books I want to buy but the queue is very long! :(
NP yes?

2009-12-10T22:35:00.003+08:00

Movie date with Fadhilah, Ning Rong & Isobel in the afternoon & caught Couples Retreat together. After they went home, I went to shop alone in orchard (how sad, haha) before meeting Mabel & Jazmyn in the evening for dinner!

I want to go shopping again! Need to work first. :(

2009-12-10T02:40:00.002+08:00

Volleyball BBQ on the 1st. My memory is bad, I can't remember what happened.

2009-12-08T01:58:00.005+08:00

Stayover at Vivian's house before heading to the Standard Chartered thing on yesterday. The place was very muddy. :(

2009-11-17T21:08:00.005+08:00

It's time to catch up, people.

The bbq wasn't really a blast, it just gave me a heart-warming feeling to see everyone together again, like the past though it isn't really the same anymore.

2009-11-13T23:11:00.004+08:00

2009. Probably one of the slackiest year I've gone through. Given the crazy schedule and work, I still took it easy.
Oh well, 2010 will be a better year, because I'll be done with everything! (I hope.)

Paranormal activities, anyone?

2009-11-10T20:22:00.004+08:00

No more Chinese, no more PW. Over & done with.
Next stop will be another picnic at Sentosa some time after re-exams okay? :D

2009-11-04T20:33:00.001+08:00

Hi-5, I like! <3

2009-10-26T18:29:00.004+08:00

WR DONE!

I just sent my dearest to school and am currently waiting for Meiyun to reach Starbucks. Very bored. :( But today was another load off my chest, WR submitted, OP ppt done. I just hope I can sleep right away when I reach home later.

Anyway, the "I love Jon" thing in facebook is never ending; so is the "One Die All Die" thing among us. Hahaha. I don't get why they don't just tell him straight in the face again just to remind him.

Then after Nike Human Race on Saturday we decided to play tennis at Han's house but after that thought it was very tiring so we resorted to playing Topspin. Hahaha, then Ke Gin & Clement slept all the way while Vivian & I watched random funny videos on youtube. Killed much time, successfully. :D

So this is the longest post I've ever posted since I don't know when. I am really really bored, and Jazmyn & Mabel are not free. :( I guess I have to wait till December before I can actually meet them. Why you all busier than me. :(

I should really change my blogskin, so very weird I don't like. But I lazy ahha. Okay, so now I shall continue stoning. Thank god for my laptop's company. :D

2009-10-24T19:10:00.003+08:00

Nike Human Race 2009! It was a crazy 10km but SRJC won! :D

2009-10-19T19:04:00.003+08:00

So promos are over, now it's A levels.

We spent the past weeks eating, watching movies, camwhoring, playing tennis and volleyball and rugby. I just realised I haven't gone shopping yet. Hmmmm, tomorrow onwards it'll be hardcore Chinese and Project Work, like eeew.

Oh well at least there's cca, right? :/

2009-10-19T18:51:00.001+08:00

"I'm afraid of losing you."

Clare smiles. "How could you lose me? I'm not going anywhere."

"I worry that you will get tired of putting up with my undependableness and you will leave me."

"But I never want to leave you." Clare puts her sketchbook aside. I sit up. "I won't ever leave you," she says. "Even though you're always leaving me."

"But I never want to leave you."

2009-09-30T23:09:00.001+08:00

I look like a wreck. Need sleep.

2009-09-25T11:00:00.004+08:00

Made with love by Ryu Ramsay Pong. Hahahaha. <33333

2009-09-20T01:24:00.001+08:00

Insomnia is baaaack. :(

2009-09-07T19:30:00.008+08:00

Can time slow down a little? :(
1s29'09 & 2s29'10.

Yes, surround myself with people and I'll be all right; save and protected from these crazy thoughts.

2009-09-05T16:30:00.002+08:00

These thoughts are enough to tear me apart.
I always feel all right in school, it's when I'm home or alone where these conflicting thoughts drive me crazy.

It has been months, or maybe a year. Or maybe more than that; I can't remember how long I've been feeling this way.

2009-09-05T00:20:00.004+08:00

2009-08-30T15:01:00.002+08:00

Day out with Fadhilah yesterday, where's Vivian?
After that I met up with Mabel for dinner, she said I shrunk in size everytime we met. No hor, don't anyhow. Haha.

2009-08-28T21:48:00.001+08:00

Today's movie session was Sweeney Todd! Last week's was.. Haunting in Conneticut because it was the 2nd day of 7th month. Hahaha. I like random movie sessions in LTs, so fun. :D

Happy Birthday Yi Jie! :D

3 more weeks.

Catch me if I fall.

2009-08-24T00:13:00.003+08:00

Thank you, dears. (: It meant alot.

2009-08-20T21:22:00.000+08:00

Can't get your memory off of my mind; just want your heartbeat on top of mine.

2009-08-15T22:35:00.003+08:00

ADAM IS SCARED OF KEROPOK!
"Uh-uh siol."

And today I heard a guy scream. SO GAY.

2009-08-05T22:50:00.000+08:00

I like the long hours in school because it makes me forget.

2009-08-03T20:59:00.000+08:00

School is terribly busy because of Darren Yuen. Hahaha! See we so nice to you lor then you still go take 100+ from strangers, see now gastric flu. Hahahaha. Anyway get well soon!
So maybe s29 should form a choir or something, with horrible voices. Then their stage would be in LTs since every break we will go there and plug our ipods to the speaker. :D
Okay, bye.

2009-07-30T21:06:00.002+08:00

10km Willrun on saturday. I'm walking! :D Then I need to pay back next year, 20km. :'( I hope there's no cca, body aching like hell. Zzz.
Oh well, when I'm 18 I want to go to a lesbian bar with Kenny. HAHAHA!

2009-07-28T23:50:00.000+08:00

When I get back let's disappear without a trace. <3

2009-07-17T22:58:00.002+08:00

Had a nightmare.
Vivian kept singing Digital Love, then Fadhilah & I started singing too. Haha.
Had picnic in school with many many foooooood!
Ran 4km even though my whole body was aching.
Am done with A lvl Chinese Oral! :DDDDDDDD
Met up with Mabel today, where's Jazmynnnnnnnn?!
Volleyball? Volleyball? Yes, volleyball!
I look like a kid.
KENNY HAS BABY FACE!

2009-07-02T21:09:00.002+08:00

I missed 2 tau huey sessions with the girls. :(

2009-06-29T19:47:00.011+08:00

And so it's back to school! :):):) Must be nerdy already.

Who wants to go Volleyballlllllllll? So tempting right! :D

2009-06-27T23:14:00.000+08:00

Cafe Cartel with Vivian on Saturdayyyyyy.

2009-06-26T22:43:00.000+08:00

Somehow the time seems to pass so fast today. :(

2009-06-24T00:00:00.001+08:00

Must not give up. :(

Anyway, I haven't watch Drag Me To Hell with Vivian, Yijie & Fadhilah leh. :( 5 more days before school starts. Boo.

2009-06-22T00:49:00.001+08:00

Legendary HCP. Hahahahhaha!

2009-06-18T22:52:00.005+08:00

I shall go on a diet. HAHAHHAHA.
(Vivian will be very happy 'cause she doesn't have to give in to peer pressure anymore! I always psycho her to eat hahahhaa.)

No lah the ulcer on my tongue hurts lah. :(

2009-06-16T14:56:00.002+08:00

NYP's library very cold please. I am very bored. :/

2009-06-15T17:59:00.007+08:00

"Have you seen the woman's face in the jar like a jellyfish? He says he's had her in the jar three years. It's a two-quart jar, maybe bigger, with a wide-mouth lid. He changes the formaldehyde regularly to keep it from clouding. The face tends to fold into itself, so you don't at first see a face. It's like something from the sea, clenched yet billowy. So he gently shakes the jar, gently swirls the contents, and the face.... it blossoms. You recognise an ear first. The ears are attached, and the cartilage gives them shape. There's cartilage in the nose, too, but it hasn't held its shape very well. The nose is just a lump. The lips are full, but the mouth is just a hole, and the eyes are holes. There's no hair, 'cause he cut only from one ear to the other, from the top of the brow to the bottom of the chin. You can't tell its a woman's face, and not a man's. He says she was beautiful, but there's no beauty in the jar. He has four photos of her face. In the first, she's alive. Then dead. In the third, the face is partly peeled back. In the fourth, her head is there, her hair, but the soft tissue of her face is gone, nothing but bone, the grinning skull. The first photo, when she was alive, maybe she was pretty like he says. You can't tell because... she's all terror. She's ugly with terror."

-Velocity

So work at IT fair is over leh. :D Definitely a leg-breaking experience, but it's fun and sian at the same time haha. Then it's the first time in my life I hear Rolf talk non-stop can! :O He keeps bragging about how many meals his in-charge got for him while Mabel & I got none. Boo. :( But hahahaha every morning he is very very quiet.

Hmm who wants to study with me? :D

2009-06-03T23:02:00.002+08:00

Brain overload. Zzzzzzz.
3 down, MORE to go.

2009-05-30T01:00:00.003+08:00

Tell me that you love me, and it'll be all right.
Are you thinking of me? Just come with me tonight.
You know I need you, just like you need me.
Can't stop, won't stop, I must be dreaming.

HOLIDAYYYYYYYYS.! :))))))

2009-05-25T19:28:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAZMYN :D

2009-05-23T22:45:00.002+08:00

Thank you Vivian, Fadhilah & Yijie for spending the day with me yesterday watching Uninvited, and waiting for me until I finish watching Monster VS Aliens just to give me the colourful beads, yay!

Thank you Jazmyn & Mabel for just talking, shopping & spending the day laughing. Thank you Mabel for the card and the top. Thank you Jazmyn for the meal.

Thank you Darling for the present, and the song and the nice nice dinner you made for me.

Thank you everyone who wished me happy birthday, at least I know I'm not forgotten, haha.

Thank you, I LOVE YOU ALL OKAY? MUAHHHHHHS. xoxoxoxoxoxo. hahahha!

2009-05-23T01:15:00.004+08:00

Now I know cannot watch horror movies with YiJie! Hahahahaha. Yay I like couple seats in the cinema. So today we screamed, laughed, and went crazy together. We've got no life. :(
& Thank you girls! I've got colourful beads yay! :)

2009-05-18T01:30:00.002+08:00

Where are the both of you??? :(

2009-05-17T00:09:00.004+08:00

Valerie & Co. behind us, haha!

Jiale's face, hehe.

Study at airport with Vivian & Yijie on Thursday & Friday! :)
Must. Tell. Myself. I. love. Chemistry. Maths. Econs. And. History.

2009-05-09T22:12:00.000+08:00

My flu medicine looks like candy. :S

2009-05-06T01:27:00.003+08:00

My table is in a mess.
I think I grew fatter.
I FINISHED PI! :D
I don't like Wednesdays.
I need to sleep, badly.

2009-05-01T16:36:00.003+08:00

It's Friday & it's time to go crazy. :O
I was bored, then I explored Mabel's laptop. Super unglam. :( hahaha

Aiya my body clock is screwed. Must. Wake. Up. Early. Tmr.

2009-04-25T00:41:00.004+08:00

I think this photo is quite retarded. Hahaha.
WEEKENDS = SLEEP. :D

Eh where's my ice-cream waffle. :(((

Hello Fluffy I miss you & your owner. :)

2009-04-20T21:46:00.003+08:00

School is tiring, but slacking in the lecture theatre with my class before History lecture brightens my day a little because they make me laugh. Haha.
Another 1 1/2 month to go before holiday starts.

I want potato chips. Heh.

2009-04-17T22:54:00.000+08:00

And so I bought a new storybook because I couldn't resist the temptation.
Am sleepy. Tomorrow got school. :(

2009-04-12T22:28:00.004+08:00

I studied today at maccafe while Syafiq was playing dota & Siti was sleeping? Anyway I saw YiJie & Nisah too! Then to hospital to visit Kaixiang, that poor thing. Hahaha. Get well soon.

2009-04-08T00:40:00.002+08:00

1st draft of PI is done, a load off my shoulders finally. At least for this weekend. :/ Always feel relieved when I cross out something from my organiser. haha! Anyway, I am forever needing sleep lah hahahha. I cannot wait to meet Mabel & Jazmyn! & Riko and gang to study together when they start school!

So weird without JiaLe in school for a long time, lucky she comes back sometimes to eat lunch with us! :) Vivian you cannot sick okay, if not I alone! hahahah

2009-04-05T21:35:00.003+08:00

I can't wait for the next weekend to come. I need sleep.

2009-03-29T21:21:00.001+08:00

Brain is not working. Everything Adam's typing now is like foreign language to me. Hahaha.

2009-03-29T01:36:00.004+08:00

Jiale's last day on friday. :(

Fishball so cute hor. :):)

I will miss you k FISHBALL! :) Please take care. Come back & run with us during PE! Hahaha!

2009-03-22T22:27:00.001+08:00

Yay Pan's Labyrinth!

2009-03-20T02:21:00.003+08:00

Hello, insomnia is back to haunt me again. I don't like. :(
I ate quite a lot yesterday (since it's 2.25am now), thanks to Fadhilah then Mabel & QianHui. Like what Paris said, I'm on gaining weight programme. Doesn't help, anyway.
& then it's friday already, sigh. Another week flew by just like that.

I MISS YOU! <333

2009-03-18T18:08:00.005+08:00

There is nothing more I could have from him, and there is nothing more I wanted from him but that one hour at the end of my long day when heart beat and my breath is short and I am happy. :)

Yay Subway with Jolynn today! "Must scold, never scold they never learn!" Hahaha she made me laugh like crazy today.

Anyone wants to go maccafe & slack with me? :D
& yay Jiale's back tomorrow!

2009-03-15T15:11:00.005+08:00

"Even though my love for you may fade away, I want to give you more than words ever say. 'Cause I believe in you, and my song will fill the air when we're apart." :)
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"Dear God," Tatiana prayed in bed that night, turning herself to the wall and pulling the white sheet and the thin brown blanket over herself. "If You are there somewhere, please teach me how to hide what I never knew how to show."

I feel like reading The Bronze Horseman again because Origins of Cold War is very boring.

2009-03-12T21:19:00.004+08:00

It's thursday finally! :)

I am looking forward to holidays so I can sleep sleep sleep!

I want to go dragon boating & Vietnam with 1s29!

I feel so bad because I bluffed a lady on the phone that I am 12. HAHAHA. And she believed. So very random. I am bored.

2009-03-02T19:50:00.001+08:00

What the f. is your problem now, seriously.

2009-03-01T23:41:00.004+08:00

Dinner with 1s29 at Fish & Co. last Thursday! :)
Happy belated birthday, Mary (HongLin). Hahaha.

Darren's usual face.

2009-02-15T20:44:00.002+08:00

I spent valentines' day with both my boyfriend & girlfriends. (((:

2009-02-14T00:00:00.004+08:00

1S29!

I'd like to spin myself silly in the hall again. Hahahaha.
Oh well, HAPPY VALENTINES! :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY VALERIEEEEEE! <3333>

2009-02-09T21:41:00.000+08:00

Yes ah, Valerie coming back tmrrrrrrrrr! :DDDD